All Things ShINY and BRIGhT!

Is there anything better than sunshine?
tulips opening in the morning sun, a river or stream clear as ice, fish dancing inside it, basking in the sunlight?

being able to walk outside with out a jacket and boots on?

spring is coming slowly. there is nothing better.
today is easter, we have such nice weather.

I'm so happy, because life is going good. I got a raise at work finally, and they made me a shift lead. which will look good on a resume, i'm really greatfull for that.

I have a wonderfull best friend she's getting married in the temple so soon, and i'm so proud of her hard work, and determination. she's such a good example to me.

we have been friends since the 5th grade, and best friends since 10th. there hasn't been anything better thats happened to me. true friendship is one of the greatest gifts god can give you in this life.

I'm so greatfull for her.

there's also this guy. he gets me in ways i don't think i even understand, but he is wonderfull. I can't imagine where i'd be with out him.
agian, i know that god loves me, he's blessing me so much.

school is almost over, and even though i feel like i'm sinking with all the things i have and need to get done, i will be happy when its done.

Summer is knocking on the door, soon spring will let her in.
I want to start running in the mornings again, and going to the gym 3 times a week.

I want to run a 5k,10k,half marathon or two, and maybe a relay this summer, I want to be a golden child.

more than anything i want to go sit in the temple, and feel the piece and joy that is there. I know i can. I know i will.

healing has been a process, but i'm realizing that some things leave us, for one simple reason. they weren't meant to be.

Its a good realization.

All things shiny and Bright, beautiful and free.

I want to find them, and make them a part of me.
winter is leaving.

It is time.

I'm so glad i can realize things that i haven't before. In this past year i have learned more about who i am, and who i want to be, than i have in a very,very long time.

I'm glad that i have the oppertunity to grow so much.

The future is bright.

i'm excited to see where it will lead me.

how i feel about the last year of my life. in a riddle of thoughts.

Here goes something, but its better than nothing, nothing is the ground beneath my feet.
up here its not cold, i'm not alone. I watch from a cloud as everyone else morns me.
to say i'm lost would be another word to describe the place they sent me.
I can't control the world around me, no i never could.
i see the people as they cry, i wonder how long they'll remember me. did i do anything worth remembering while i was down there.

does it matter how we go? all i know is there were regrets, never spoken, words i wish i could forget.
please tell me i'm not alone, in this.
I sit from a cloud watching my eulogy, a life well spent, trying to fix the messes that i left.
one day I woke up and realized i had changed.
someone told me i don't laugh as much, someone told me i don't act the same.
when did life decide to shape me into such an adult? is knowledge the learning of truth, after proof of sin can cause so much death inside of you.

people think being naive is the way to be, i think its the only way to stay happy. lets pretend that we never did anything wrong, lets pretend were not lost.
all of us searching for some meaning, something bigger to save us from the reality.

cause i'm here sitting on a cloud watching them morn me. I'm not alone in this, I know one day i'll see my kids, one day i'll know the impact my life had.
I feel lost, floating around, everything seems so clear to me. i wait to meet the one that created me,
what will he have to say to me? is he everything i thought he would be?
all the things that led you here, why'd you call me home? i'm sorry for the wrongs i tried to fix.
all i wish is for them to see, open your eyes. keep laughing through the pain, its the best way to stay away from being seen, we hide the messes we created.
they tell me that i don't laugh the same, they tell me that i act different. loss of innocences makes us grow up to fast.
tell me the truth, do you think happieness lasts?
watch you grieve me, sitting on a cloud.
a life lived well.
love the way it all looks now. take back the things i couldn't figure out. it all makes sense some how now.

life isn't the loss of one, its the time spent living that needs to matter. we can't do a thing once were dead. don't waste your innocense on things that don't matter. protect this.

walk through the journey, don't be affraid of the valley of death, when it comes to take you live like you were always ready. its the best way to gaurantee, you're living happy. i promis you.
its worth it.