All I ever Wanted.

I Saw them in concert at the big @ss show for my sisters birthday a few months ago.





they were amazing, especially the asian Steven.. so dreamy!





and they walked feet in front of me, close enough to touch, it wasn't until there body gaurded politely asked me to move aside that i realized who these famouse people were.





that is THEE Air Borne Toxic Event! they walked right by me, it was so precious i could have died... ha okay i'm not really that dramatic.. but yeah that asian Steven really is JUST that GOOD looking..





maybe its the hair, or that he is talented, can dance and has amazing style.. i just can't pin point it.

BUT i can give you some good music choices from this band.

my personal favorites are

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  All I Ever Wanted




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  Sometime around midnight




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  Changing




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  and, Missy

"Music, its like a journal with rythme".

"Every journal is different, but all people go through the same emotions at some point or another, this is why music is so powerful".

A Two Day late Post.

Happy Happy Thanksgiving!

I am so grateful for everything and everyone in my life. there are so many great things to look forward to, and appreciate in my life.

My family-they love me with out condition, flaws and all.

my very Best friend. she tells me how it is, and i love her for that

my JOB. never thought I'd say this, but i am really glad i have it, and i love my coworkers.

animals, nature, outside. its all beautiful, and i enjoy being in it. soon i will have to force my self out there because of the snow, but it is still magnificent.

My niece and nephews~ Jaxyn- such a sweet little guy~ Shalie ~ so fun, loving and beautiful~ and Jayden ~ the newest one, he is so calm and perfect.

My love for the human race, the fact that i enjoy the company of others, and have a desire to love them.

My acceptance of my flaws, and my ability to change to become better.

The love that i have for my Heavenly Father, and the knowledge that he loves me even when I make the worst decisions I can.

Running and exercise, they keep me sane.

and the contradiction to exercise, which is my absolute love for food, especially anything bad for me.

and of course life itself. with out it I wouldn't experience anything.

But Here is to Giving Thanks. Honestly when life gives you some form of a Lemon, that leaves a bitter taste in your mouth, and its hard to get up in the morning for fear it will still be there, the best thing to do is remember the good things about you, and be thankful that you do.

one day that taste will leave, one day your wrongs will be righted. so give thanks to the good things that happen in your life, and look for the good in the bad situations that happen too.

Because tomorrow will come regardless of what has happened today, it is up to you to notice the good things, and choose to be happy.

when there is nothing left to do, remember that we have a support group in the sky, when crying, and words and

"I'm sorry"

don't help anymore, then don't be afraid to ask for help.

I hope you realize the beauty that life has to hold, outside of this moment in time, there are so many wonderful things to see. so forgive yourself and allow you to be happy.

i promise it will be worth the trouble.

"its okay to still love"

I love you.

love me.

When things happen that aren't exactly the most wonderful things in life, the best thing to do is STOP.

re evaluate what has happened.

when all you can do is cry, i think its time to get down on your knees.

you may not find PEACE, right then.

but the truth is.. and always will be.. that no matter how awful your troubles,

no matter how sad you are, or how bad you've hurt another person

Heavenly Father knows you, your intent of heart, and the truth.

He also has a plan.

If you've stepped off the path intended for you, maybe went on a 13.1 mile jog, diddle dallied in the land of discontentment, selfishness, unchaste, worldly fun. ( I'll call this playing in Vegas)

then maybe the plan now entails this time of sorrow, so that you can return safely, and become who he needs you to be.

life with out a plan is like living everyday wondering where you'll end up. maybe if we trust in god more to write our story for us, some of the things we do wouldn't be so hard.

At the end of the day, if you can't say that you've been better than you were the day before then maybe there's something wrong with that picture.

I guess its that moment when...

you realize that who you are, who you were, and who you want to be aren't matching up. in fact they may even be running circles around each other.

somethings always got to give, eventually your UN truths will come out, and you will be alone.

in that moment only God can comfort you.

True friends listen, give honest feed back and see both sides.

and that is why we love them.

Never be afraid to tell the truth, there is no better feeling than being free,

yet no worse feeling than knowing that it will hurt someone else.

trust me, i would know.